Sometimes I get really bad anxiety about going to class. It’s not that I don’t enjoy the classes, or I am doing badly in them, it’s just that I think of all the bad things that could happen and get overwhelmed.
I struggled with this a lot last year. I would skip classes, simply because I was so overwhelmed. I was insecure and unable to get over that fear, which is very frustrating because I have always prided myself on being strong and independent.
This year, however, I found my solution. Whenever I am anxious about going to a class or a function I put on my battle armor, an arrow head necklace that my dad got me.
I don’t know why this necklace is special, but I swear it’s magic. Maybe it’s the fact that it could have been used in a war, and if it made it through then I can get through this class. Or maybe it’s the fact that I know my dad put a lot of thought into it, and in a way I am carrying a piece of him with me. Whatever the reason is, it gives me strength.
I just put it on whenever I am having a bad day, and I am able to make it through. Yes, the day is still hard, and as I’m sitting in class I still get anxious, but at least I went to class. I am able to make it through all my busy days. Yes, there are still some days that I can’t go to class because I am sick, but now I miss less classes than I did last year.
If you are having anxiety about going to classes, or any obligation, I recommend trying a similar coping mechanism. Maybe it’s a really comfy pair of shoes that works for you, or wearing your hair a certain way. Or maybe you reward yourself after you make it through a class you really didn’t want to attend.
Going to classes can be scary and overwhelming. Strap your armor on, take a deep breath, and put this battle behind you.