I have been thinking a lot about family and what is normal, and if I had a normal up-bringing or not. I think a lot of kids that grow up with parents dealing with addiction are concerned about others finding out. This can come from fear of being judged, or rejected.

It wasn’t until the past few years that my dad recognized he was an alcoholic, and bipolar, or at least that is when he brought it to my brother’s and my attention. So, I didn’t grow up associating my dad with these things, and in some ways that made it easier. I could ignore the things that I didn’t like, and pretend that my family was normal because there were no negative labels put on it yet.

On the other hand, it made somethings harder, not knowing why he was acting a certain way, and thinking that this was normal. This not knowing, or feeling of normalcy, is what I believe contributed to my fear of growing up to act like my dad.

I wouldn’t change the way I was brought up, or the things that I have been through. They made me me, and I like the person I have become. If anything, I wish my dad didn’t have to struggle so much to get to a place where he is comfortable and getting the help that he needs.

Normal is overrated.





Hi! My name is Madeleine, but I go by Maddie. I’m from CT, but am currently going to school for ceramic engineering in Missouri.

So, a little bit about me. I’m 19 turning 20 in the summer, I have POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome), I have depression, I have a brother who is three years younger, I have a boyfriend of a little over three months, my dad is bipolar and a recovering alcoholic, and my mother is dealing with major health issues.

I decided to start this blog because as I was going through my problems and struggles I looked around for people sharing their stories, and I didn’t really find that much. I am here to share my story in hopes to help others that are going through similar things.

I never claim to be an expert on anything I write about, but I believe that once you’ve been through a struggle and come out the other side, you have knowledge that can be helpful to those still stuck.

I hope you stick around and always feel free to ask questions or leave comments.