I am making plans to see a new doctor in a couple of months and because of this they have asked me to record my pain and symptoms daily. So now I live by the questions of where does it hurt, how much does it hurt, is that from this or this? It is frustrating because usually when I am in pain I try not to dwell on it. I push it to the back of my mind where I can ignore it.
But now I am forced to think about the pain and the discomfort. To realize that almost every day I am being put in some type of discomfort, and I hate to dwell on that. I want to think that I am normal and that I have maybe one bad day a week, when in reality I have maybe one good day.
I am grateful that I have the support system that I do and that I am able to see doctors that want to help me. I realize that it is important to track symptoms, but for my own mental well being, I find it detrimental. I hate looking back and seeing that this has been a four headache day week, when normally I would have a headache and when it goes away I would forget about it. Being able to trick myself into thinking I am healthier than I am is a luxury.
How have I found to get through it?
I write down all the information that I need and then put it away. It isn’t on my desktop, or any place that I look constantly. It it out of sight and that causes me to not think about it all the time. I am less likely to dwell on it. Now the most annoying part is having to roll up my sleeves to take my blood pressure every couple of hours.
Do what you have to do, then put it away so you can get on with your life.